Years ago in about 1975, I heard iconic missionary, Elizabeth Elliot speak. At that point in her life she was a second time widow. Her first husband was murdered in 1956, and her second husband died in 1973. I remember her saying something that made absolutely no sense to me. It wouldn't be until 2012 that I would begin a journey that helped me to understand her statement, "The Lord is my husband."
2012 thrust me into being single again. The year before that my mother had died so there was still a lot left to finish settling her estate, closing my parents mission, and selling the property. I kept very busy and had a lot of people around me. I didn't have much time to think about being single.
SOLITUDE AND LONELINESS
Once we purchased our farm in 2015 I had many days of solitude and time to think. It suddenly hit me that I was alone. The rest of the family adults were busy at their jobs during the daytime. I spent long hours on the tractor doing field maintenance, working on the growing "to do list" of farm needs, and caring for animals. There was no one during the day with which to share my struggles or victories.
We bought the farm in July. Thanksgiving and Christmas went well as all of the relatives wanted to see the property and celebrate with us. The approaching of Valentine's Day was a different story. I had always loved to receive fresh flowers and knew there would be none since I didn't have a 'special' person in my life. Valentine's Day can be difficult for many single people.
In the late fall I had planted some pansies just outside my cottage door. They grew slowly due to the cooler weather in December and January. February 1st came and still no flowers. Then as I came out my door on February 14th there they were, my flowers for Valentines Day. I cried and felt joy, all at the same time.
On two other occasions God has given me unique gifts that no one else could have given. In February of 2017, we had baby goats born just before Valentines Day. It was an exciting time as these were the first babies I had ever helped to deliver. I was surprised at how beautiful they were. Look at the photo below of this little one with a surprise on her back.
Our Creator God was speaking my "love language" again when I needed confirmation that I was special to someone.
Finally, on a separate occasion, one of our hen's presented me with this egg, another gift from God.
THE LORD IS MY HUSBAND
By the time this egg came along, I felt very cared for by God. Along with scripture, these gifts helped me realize that the knight in shining armor, the one I had always longed for, was already mine. His gifts were things that could not be mistaken as from anyone else. He was the faithful, caring, tender, yet strong and loving one I needed. I finally understood what Elizabeth Elliot meant when she said, "The Lord is my husband."
If you are struggling with singleness, press into our Creator God through Jesus Christ and learn from Him. He cares for you more than anyone else. He will never leave you even if others do. A relationship with Him will not die if you know Him as your Savior.
"I have loved you with an everlasting love." (Jeremiah 31:3) "For God so loved that world that He gave"- His most precious gift, Jesus Christ. (John 3 16). "Greater love has no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends. You are my friends, if you do whatsoever I command you." (John 15:13-14)
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